Feeling like, making money!

Apr 29, 2024

Welcome to another blog update with yours truly, tinashemillicent.

tinashemillicent (tin-uh-sheh-MIL-i-sent)

Part of Speech: Noun/Adjective/Verb

Definition:

Noun: A term derived from the name of an individual - ME!, embodying my personality, values, and beliefs.

Adjective: Describing qualities or actions that reflect the essence of the myself; characterized by resilience, determination, and authenticity.

Verb: To exhibit traits or behaviors synonymous; to persist with unwavering dedication, to pursue goals with passion and tenacity.

Note: "tinashemillicent" symbolizes personal ethos, promoting self-awareness, strength, and authenticity. Encourages embracing individuality and pursuing goals with determination

To my loyal readers, people who actually are excited and keen to read my weekly update, I am sorry for not writing last week. As you might know, I was dealing with one of the heaviest headaches I have ever experienced, coupled with eye strain causing blurry vision. I was able to return to the optician and they have prescribed new lenses which I will collect this week. A slight error had been made on my card affecting the lenses they initially gave me. I was only glad I went back. And then from Wednesday, I had flu which was the worst because I hadn’t seen the signs, it creeped up on me and I had to take two half days and a full day off so last week wasn’t my best week. And it gets worse. On the Friday, we received devasting news. A close relative had passed and no one can ever truly be ready for the inevitable time that is death.

The 12 week year, the catalyst for my starting the blog – with little alterations to suit my circumstances. I am already in week 3, year 2 and what have I done? NOTHING. I know I haven’t laid down my goals and this is the purpose of the blog this week.

Goal 1:License( or half of it, prov) a ‘carry’ from year one. I could never find the right time to go and I excel in academics but its all due to consistent studying not that I grasp things easily so I need to study for it & I aways find myself busy. People say, if it’s a priority, you make time for it. I think I find myself slacking because I have alternatives to transportation – which I have been using for the most part of my adult life so the urgent need is not there.

Goal 2: MAKE MONEY! A friend of mine is aiming to make a million dollars in 2024. I will not be surprised if he achieves this goal. He is a POWERHOUSE! Takura Ndoro. He documents his journey as well on his blog post. I also just realised that Takura mentioned my blog in his last weeks post and its just pure coincidence that I mention you Takura, lol. Now, I think I am sitting duck. I sit on my talents. Ask me what those are again? Well , we will find out together. I have registered on Fiverr. A site for freelancing – services. Well, that’s the first step. I don’t want a physical presence. I am too ‘tinashemillicent’ for that. Second step, which is actually a goal is:

Goal 3: Sell my art! I recently had a little date with Michelle and we were painting. As both of us were first timers with acrylic paint, we realised that Michelle is actually quite good with paints whilst I on the other hand, struggle with it. I will stick to my pencils and charcoals. My style of art as of late is a bit, controversial? I have been drawing erotic pieces and the other reason for that is because I cant draw features clearly – faces, hands & feet when I am drawing a body and so I just silhouette those and focus on the intention of the drawing, passion. I plan on selling at least one. Tell a friend to tell a friend.

Money, Money, Money! – this also needs me to vigilant with my spending

Goal 4: Lifelong learning – Get a micro certificate or just a certificate in any field preferably in data analytics, cyber security or any field in information technology. The tricky thing about my industry is that I always need to be in the loop of the latest tech in a sector otherwise, I might just be irrelevant. I foresee this being a challenge as I am already tackling my programs at HIT & UZ. But again, I am too ‘tinashemillicent’ quit without trying. In year one, these were individual goals but I plan to attend more events, webinars, seminars, finish a book and write more articles

Goal 5: I don’t know how to name this goal without sounding pathetic and lonely. I care for the people that are in my life and I believe in kindness, understanding & calmness. Well, stoicism. I do not believe in reciprocating energy but just being kind and I don’t retaliate. It’s a tinashemillicent nature. With that said, my subconscious starts to think everyone will act the way I do, everyone will think the way I do and so I expect a lot( not saying I do a lot) and I get disappointed. I want to learn to not expect anything and to not conclude. Am I writing sense or I am just blabbering? I want to be loved and be prioritised but unfortunately I cant expect and feel entitled to that. I want to have friendships but I cant expect to be understood all the time.

Goal 6: MYND – what are we doing this time around? I got to a standstill with some final details with certain people and silly me, I am not following up and making progress which is a major hindrance and so I actually don’t know. I have been discouraged by so much and its affecting me greatly. I hate to say this but I don’t have a strong will. I am swayed easily most days. I will let you know more about goal 6 maybe next week.

As I write this, I feel tired and strained, mentally. I can pin point certain things which I can fix and give myself time to do but it’s the invisible non-readable problems I cant pin point. I am not outspoken but even I feel I haven’t been myself lately. Thank you to someone who sat me down & broke down the possible causes for this feeling of self-disgust. Yes, self-disgust. Help me pray for an opportunity that I greatly need and in the race for. That’s all for this blog post.

Until next time,

tinashemillicent.